Compromise. Why don’t boys understand that sometimes? If they would just understand, it would make life so much easier and the relationship would be so much better.

He’s sick. Told him he’s spending the night with grandma and he kept telling me no. I can’t afford another night staying up with him. I won’t make it for work on Monday.

He’s sick. Told him he’s spending the night with grandma and he kept telling me no. I can’t afford another night staying up with him. I won’t make it for work on Monday.

Lesson learned… No more pop

Today my baby saw all the little kids drink Sprite so he thought he could join the club. Such a bad idea. I told him no but he made a fuss in front of everyone. I let him have some so he could learn his lesson why I don’t allow it. We went to Walmart and he told me he was sick so he deserves a toy. I told him that’s not how it works when he’s sick. He rushed me out of Walmart because he said it’s night time and he wants to go to sleep. I asked him if his stomach was aching, he said yeah. I told him it’s because he had the Sprite. Now he knows and he told me he won’t drink pop anymore. He knocked out the moment we got home.

Such a good baby. He came home and I told him to go to sleep. Next thing you know he’s knocked out within minutes.

Such a good baby. He came home and I told him to go to sleep. Next thing you know he’s knocked out within minutes.

He wanted to help me wash dishes but I was done so I let him help with washing the rice. He sure is growing up. Soon I’m gonna start to become lazy. Lol

I’m supposed to be happy today right? But I’m not. I hate that he thought he could hide it from me. Ugghhh. You can’t hide shit from me mister! You’re not that slick. 11 months together yet this guy still thinks it’s okay to do and hide things behind my back.

Going on 11 months together. It’s been super rough on us but we’re still holding on.

Going on 11 months together. It’s been super rough on us but we’re still holding on.

Love this boy but seriously… He’s developed such an attitude. Very demanding but he listens to me which I’m so grateful for. I hate him being influenced by others. Lol but that’s life, can’t stop it from happening. I just want him to stay as my little angel forever.

Love this boy but seriously… He’s developed such an attitude. Very demanding but he listens to me which I’m so grateful for. I hate him being influenced by others. Lol but that’s life, can’t stop it from happening. I just want him to stay as my little angel forever.

He’s so sweet

It’s been almost a year since we started dating and he wanted to take me on vacation again. Too bad we can’t. Gotta save up and move out and buy new furniture. I’m so mad that I have to buy a new bedframe!!! Damn stupid landlord.

Vacation will have to wait…

Everyday I’m grateful for him.

Everyday I’m grateful for him.

Job searching again. Ugghhh

So I didn’t get the permanent position with my current job. Why? Because I’ve missed too many days.

Do I have to tell people I’m sick. Been sick since I was 19 and battling every day to be stronger?

You can say I’m annoyed. But I opened up to my supervisor about it. She said if my attendance is good for the next month until my contract is over then maybe they’ll think about hiring me.

At this point I don’t care. This job stinks. Applying for jobs like crazy today though.

Losing hope

Turned down for three jobs that I got referral on. Now I’m just waiting on the current job to see if I get it. But I’m slowly losing hope because the job posting has been taken off the website already. I’m so tired of job hunting. So tired of getting to get a permanent job. Ugghhh. It’s been three years since I’ve had a permanent position. I feel like it’s a dead end road for me. Praying that God has something better out there for me soon. I’m getting impatient.

Doesn’t it take two?

I’ve only slept for two hours and haven’t been able to sleep since I woke up at 2am. I’m gonna regret it. I wish I could just go home right now. Made the worse decision ever to sleep here.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m just alone in this. Honestly I feel like I am. My feelings isn’t even being considered. Why do I bother? Why?!

Apparently I just lecture and lecture. Seriously? I’m expressing how I feel.

Is it wrong to want to go to bed at the same time at least one night a week? Are you seriously gonna drink every night you’re off work just because you’re bored and you have your kids with you? You gonna stay up until 2-3am drinking while your kids sit there and wait for you to go to sleep with them? Is it always gonna be like this? You want a girl who can be old fashioned yet you can’t change your ways. You tell me you’re settling down by wanting to move in together but are you fully committed?

I feel like I’m living a fucken joke here. I already know he’s gonna wake up and pretend shit never happened.

Did I set myself up for disaster? Is it so wrong of me to have feelings? Do I honestly deserve this kind of treatment? Am I sacrificing too much?

I’m so done with my apartment

Frustrated. Came home at 4am and to my surprise my wooden bedframe is ruined because the landlord never bothered to fix the damn hole in my bedroom. Thanks, thanks a lot. I’m losing more and more money. I don’t know what to do anymore. Gonna call them tomorrow and if they don’t fix it, I’m reporting it to the city. It’s my third summer there and it’s the same thing over and over again. Ugghhh I feel like I have to record every call I make to fix my apartment! I’m so ready to move out.

Not only am I frustrated with my apartment, my mom upset me today. I wished it wasn’t like this. I’m annoyed!

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Just Released: The third single off Sia’s soon-to-be-release album, 1000 Forms of Fear pretty much dashes your heart into a million pieces across the floor. Big girls do in fact cry, as proven in this powerful and lachrymose ballad: “I may cry ruining my makeup/ Wash away all the things you’ve taken/ I don’t care if I don’t look pretty/ Big girls cry when their hearts are breaking.” Keep an eye on this album, as it’s scheduled to be released on July 8th, 2014.

Digging this song